So this past Saturday, I had my region band auditions. And I know I shouldn’t be jealous or sad or in any negative emotions, but I am. I made it all the way to audition for region band and that’s a big deal. But I just can’t get over the fact that I didn’t make it. Not even to the third region band. I know, I know, you guys don’t want to hear any sob story or about any of my problems, but honestly, I feel like I need closure. And this is the way I will get it.
So here’s the thing. I feel like I’ve failed way too many times in life. I was so confident this time. I just knew that I was going to get in. In fact, I even told my friends “I don’t want to sound egoistic, but I’m pretty sure I’m going to get in guys.” Out of 48 people, I ended up being around 30. I was too astonished to look at my exact rank. At District, I had done so well. Had I let my ego and confidence get in front of me? Had I failed myself because of my thoughts? I swear I had the exactly same routine as the past Saturday for District, but I guess something had just gone different. Oh please, oh please let this be the last time that I fail.
Now all I can say is ‘oh well, what’s done is done.’ It’s over and I should be proud of what I have done. I’m first chair in Select. I’m in NJHS. I’m a writer for an online publication, Canyon Echoes. And I can do so much more. I want to stop listing my failures. I want to begin an era of my life where I can honor my successes, an learn from my failures. And even if I keep failing again and again, I will rise up above and take the high road.
But enough about me. We should talk about you fellow readers. As this is my first blog post, I assume this number is small. But I hope to get this main message out to you guys. Never give up. I know you guys have heard it so many times, and I’m going to say it to you again. No matter how many times you fail, be proud of your successes and keep trying. We are all humans, and we make mistakes. We should learn from these mistakes and create new exciting memories.
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